EXCITED AND NERVOUS

34 weeks, 6 days

Today leaves 35 days until my due date. We finally got the car seat installed yesterday and things are slowly falling into place. I am starting to feel "ready" to meet our daughter...well, at least as "ready" as I'll ever be!

One thing for sure, I am starting to feel both excited and nervous!

I have my moments where I'll feel her move, glance down at my belly dancing, and get SO excited knowing that it won't be much longer until she's dancing in my arms. That feeling of excitement creates a sense of confidence. I can visualize myself in labor from start to finish and I already feel so accomplished. There were times in my life where I wasn't sure if I wanted to have children, however, I can honestly say I have never been more sure than I am now that this will be my greatest accomplishment and that I was meant to be a mommy.

I also have my moments where I'll feel her move, glance down at my belly dancing, and get SO nervous knowing that it won't be much longer until she's dancing in my arms. That feeling of nervousness creates a sense of overwhelming responsibility. This new little life we are bringing into the world will be dependent on us for everything. We will need to provide her with not only clothes, food, and shelter, but love, stability, and structure. It's a big undertaking, but one I am truly looking forward to.

Years from now I am sure I will reflect back on how I felt in the few final weeks before Gwen's arrival. I can't wait to see the person she grows to be. I am sure she will make both myself and her daddy very proud, but more importantly, I wish for her to be proud of herself.